This past week,
our last week in Thailand, I have been thinking about so many things from the
past months of the race. We have one month of the race left and I have had so
many questions running through my mind…
“Have I done enough?”, “What is God
calling me to after this?”, “If I had worked in different ministries, where
would my heart be right now?”…and the biggest one, “What has God broken my
heart for this year?”
I thought and
thought about it and I tried to wrap my mind around these questions I was asking
myself. I tried to answer them and came up with answers like: “no, you haven't
done enough, you don't know what God wants you to after this, you missed your
calling.” My heart was sad as I tried to answer these questions in my own
futile thinking, not asking the Lord what He had to say about these questions I
was asking. After talking to some of the girls and feeling pretty broken, I
finally decided to turn these questions and answers around to the only One who
can truthfully respond to these thoughts. He has the truth and He knows my heart.
God told me “Well
done, Leah…it's not about you ‘doing' enough this year. You were obedient to my
calling on your life and I will teach you through your experiences this entire
year; every hurting child you've seen, every woman you've cried and prayed
with, every sight that has broken your heart and drawn you into My arms, and
every word you've spoken in My name is used for My Glory.”
I desperately
needed that and God needed me to understand that about the World Race. I've
gone through many months feeling like my gifts and talents, even passions were
not being used in the best way that I thought they could be used. But God
smacked me in the face with the truth that He has brought me to each place that
I have been in for a specific reason, whether it be for people on my team to
learn and grow, for that one special person I got to love like Jesus that
month, or just to smile at the woman in the little shack as we walked by
everyday and hold her baby for 5 minutes so she got a little break.
God is
revealing to me all the seemingly little things that He cares so much about and
that I might not see from my limited human perspective. I am asking for HIS
eyes in this, to get a little glimpse of how He worked everyday this year and
He's revealing a lot to me.
I'm at the point
right now where God is telling me that any experience I have had this year has
not been in vain. He wanted me to see the things I've seen this year and learn
from them all. To be broken and wrecked for the ordinary as I go home. He has
not called me to live a life that is normal, at least compared the worlds
standards…and especially Americas. I have recently been thinking a lot about
home and the comforts there that I haven't really even missed this year (except
delicious chips and salsa!). And for some reason just this week I have been
really excited to get back to those things. While thinking about them and
missing them it has made me sad and kind of miserable. I think this is me truly
realizing that none of that stuff, comforts of home, fun things I like to do
and yummy food that I have missed; none of those things compare to pursuing the
passions and new directions that God has been calling me into while on the
World Race. I can't go home and truly be happy with my old life: living
comfortably, thinking about myself and my needs when I know what I have seen
this year and I know what God wants me to do.
Ever since the
Philippines and the months leading up to Asia, God has specifically placed
human trafficking on my heart. I have learned so much more about this and seen
the need for hearts to break for these women that are sold, forced, and tricked
into the sex trade industry. 27 millionpeople are held in slavery through human trafficking and exploitation around the world.Onemillion children are exploited in the sex trade.
In Moldova one of our teams visited a ministry
called Stellas house that helps these women get back their lives out of prostitution and live on to
have healthy futures. In Moldova and Russia when they kick these children out
of orphanages at 14 or 15 they often call people involved in the sex trade to
tell them where they have dropped off these girls, so that they can sell them.
Or else if they do happen to not get picked up, these kids have no skills to
survive or education to get jobs…orphans are seen as scum and they have no options to survice...
so they either get tricked into prostitution or have no other choice. It's
happening all over the world and my heart breaks for these children,these
women that have no hope because no one knows who they are, or cares to rescue
them from this literal Hell they are in.
God has given us
hands and feet to bring His Kingdom to this Earth. If God has put something on
my heart, how can I sit back and know that every minute around the world women
are being treated as scum and have no hope? My heart is in pieces for these
women and children. As I was reading a book about this recently, I just
pictured myself as a parent of one of these girls and I lost it… I think about
any of these girls as my sister and it makes me want to throw up to imagine her
treated like that. I think of my innocent sweet self at 14 years old and can't
even begin to fathom what living like that would be like. It squeezes my heart
so much I feel like it could pop!
And that's where
it begins…my heart is squeezed and I am really asking God what this calling
looks like in my life right now.
...Do I move
overseas, do I get involved with this at home, what's next? So many questions
that were brought on from the first questions I was asking myself and the Lord
earlier.
But right now I am in a time of waiting…actually one of my
favorite-yet most difficult, places to be. This a time where I can either
choose to rest in My God who has great plans and be patient, or stress and try
to plan it out myself and have it epically fail. I of course am trying to
choose the first option everyday I wake up- to rest in Him and take things one
day at a time right now. He revealed all of this to me today when I was least
expecting to hear from Him on this subject! I know for this reason and so many
others, that it's best to wait patiently and seek Him during this time.
Yes, I do have a
burden on my heart for human trafficking…helping to set these girls free from
the bondage they are in and helping them find restoration and redemption in
Christ. But I don't know if God is calling me into that now, or in the future.
Everyday is His and in His hands. He will lead me in this- I am so thankful to
have learned this lesson at this time in my life!
I want to
encourage you that if God is placing a burden on your heart, big or small, He
wants you to examine that and pray about whatever that is. Nothing is too big
or small for the Lord. I couldn't get rid of this squeezing on my heart until I
signed up for the race, He put this strong weight on me until I finally sent in
my application and then it eased up, because I was obedient to Him. And now
here I am learning the same things a year later in a whole different way.I don't know if I will be able to go
home and get rid of this new squeezing on my heart, nothing of this world can
ease that feeling. Once you are called to something, God is persistent in His
efforts to lead us into that calling. Only by taking His hand can we go where
He is directing us. You might be scared of what He is calling you to do…my
advice: DON'T BE. His ways may seem scary at first, but it's a whole lot
scarier to be on your own in this world rather than dancing through life with
Him leading you. At the same time, I am super scared right now thinking about
where God may lead me or not lead me. I'm scared it won't be the life I
imagined for myself. Again God tells me: "Do not fear for I am with you, do not
be dismayed for I am your God."
Whatever you are
going through, be thankful that God cares so much about you and gives you an
open invitation to talk to Him about it at all times. He wants you to lay it at
His feet and He will take care of it. Don't worry so much about plans, it's
nothing for our little minds to stress over. We may not get what He's doing
right now but He wants it that way. If we knew everything, life would be SO
boring. Listen to the promises God has for you and abide in Him.
***It would be
awesome if you could let me know of the Human trafficking organizations you
know about, friends you have helping in this or if you have a burden for this
as well. I love hearing about other peoples passions and callings from the
Lord. He is weaving one amazing tapestry in everyone's lives and it's awesome
to share those things with one another. Be encouraged and seek Him!
Things of this
world…pass away. A weird lesson God taught me through having too much stuff in my backpack!
In regards to
the things of this world…I have learned so much about this the past few months on
the race. The need to have MORE-I have realized has only made me miserable on
the race and when I was back home.
At home you can buy new stuff and never
realize how much you really do have. But on the world race, when you have that lifestyle you have to CARRY that weight in your heavy backpack.
You literally feel the weight of every little thing you have been blessed with,
on your back. And it doesn't always feel like a blessing...
My backpack was
particularly heavy going into Hong Kong (with all of our winter clothes), and my team had to carry our packs a
really long ways walking to catch our train and go through borders. When you
walk with a 50 (plus) pound pack on your back it seriously hurts your back and
hips after a very short time. I basically walk like a penguin with it on! To sum it up... I
really thought I was going to be dead by the end of the day.
Well after a lot
of walking, and a not very happy Leah…we finally made it to the train station
where I proceeded to throw my pack on the floor in a huff. This did not go as
planned, instead of it landing on the floor it landed on my calf, sliding down
the rest of my leg until it hit the floor. Little did I know something with a
sharp end was in the bottom of my pack and it scraped down my leg, immediately
causing a giant bruise the size of a softball. I'm surprised I didn't scream from pain, but I was too
upset to show any emotion and merely just looked at Alicia and told her what
happened. I pulled my jeans up to look at my leg. I was disgusted when I saw
what I had done to my leg from my carelessness and anger. My leg was in some
pretty serious pain, so I just sat down and pouted about my stupidity.
I lived with
that bruise for a month as a constant reminder of how much stuff I have and more important: the condition of my heart. I have told this story many times to friends lately
and I wondered what I'm supposed to learn from this if I keep telling it…really it's not a
big deal, but God wanted to teach me a few weeks later through this silly story.
What I learned
from the bruise:
I have recently
come to the conclusion that I don't want my life weighed down with too much
stuff. Lately I have too much crap in my life, physically and spiritually. I've
taken too much stuff on myself!I
could have completely avoided hurting myself with my pack if I had just asked
for help…but out of my anger and hurt I threw it down and wounded myself- and
that wound lasted a long time. If I had asked for help I probably would have
been a lot less bitter about that long walk, one of my friends could have
helped take the load off my back and we could have talked through it all.
***This is what I
should have been doing with a lot of spiritual and emotional stuff in my life.
I've been carrying a lot of crap with me the past few months of the race and
out of pride I thought I could handle it.God said “here Leah, let me take all that stuff you are carrying, let me
take it off your back and we'll sit and talk about it." But instead of saying
okay, I said “it's okay Lord, I've got this stuff…don't worry about me, I can
do it myself.”
Well, I learned
the hard way that when you don't do this, you and others involved wind up hurt. With wounds that will last a lot longer than they should if you had just
handled things with the Lord. If I had just given up that control that I so
enjoy holding onto, I wouldn't be wounded right now with a bruise that will
last a while.
The beauty of
this is that when we are wounded from our pride and selfishness, God doesn't
just leave us there. Even after I said no thanks dude, He is faithful. He picks us up in our wounded state and brokenness, He uses
that big bruise that hurts so bad to get our attention back to Him. He says
“snap out of it, stop with this idol worship of other things and Look to Me!”
When we go to
Him in our pain, we go humbly- it sometimes takes God breaking us at our knees
in order for us to fall down on our knees and worship Him. God broke me at the
knees, but only for me to fall gently into His arms that were waiting to catch
me.
The Lord brings
us through the fire so He can mold us and refine us in ways we couldn't without
the heat. It's hot and not very fun, but it's just what we need. That's what last month (China) and this month (Thailand) have been for me. A month of trying to do things on
my own; and now a month of God using things in my life to break me and refine
me.
I have never
felt so at Peace with the Lord, as I do right now. God woke me up the other
morning after a few sleepless nights and said very clearly: “I UNDERSTAND.”
I didn't know what this meant at the time when He said it, but I did a few
hours later when I heard some sad news. He was telling me even before my feet
hit the floor and the day started, that He understood how I was going to feel
that day. That He understands everything in my heart better than anyone that I
could talk to about things. He knows everything before it happens, He
orchestrates the details of our life!
I have never
quite grasped God's love like this before! I may question situations and wonder
why things happen the way they do but He already knows, and when I don't have
the answers- He does.
He Understand it
ALL!
This is so huge
to remember as we go through life. We don't need to live our lives with any
fearworry, and if we do, we can go to Him because He sees our hearts. He's
been here in our shoes. or
I so often
forget that my Savior has walked in my shoes and dealt with everything I have,
on the same earth I walk on. Yet he dealt with so much more and a lived a
sinless life.
If anyone “get's
it”, He is clearly the one who does!
What a sweet and
constant reminder to me, that I had to be broken to even remember. This is one
of those lessons that I don't want to be taught again. I'm keeping it close to
my heart and DAILY running to the Lord for my strength and Peace. He is the
Peace that passes ALL Understanding!
I can plan
things out all day in my head and heart but if those things don't aline with
His heart then it will be very clear. I'm done planning my steps! I'm a little
lost as to what I'm supposed to do when I get home, but it's a great thing to
have a Father that gives direction when we are following after Him and seeking
His face.(see next blog on what God showed me right after I wrote this blog)
If I seek Him,
He will lead me to exactly the place I'm supposed to be and I will be at peace
there. I don't need the things of this world, the wealth and happiness from the
worlds perspective is not what I am seeking after. I don't want to carry that
on my back and be weighed down by it any longer. Do you?
Written on Friday, Feb. 4th- The day we went to meet Paris for lunch at the beach
PARIS WENT HOME!!!
Today when Bethsaida and I went to meet Paris for lunch on the beach, we got there at 1:45 after praying our whole walk
to the beach. We prayed that nothing would prevent her from being able to come
talk to us, that God would give us the words, we thanked God for his
faithfulness and love with the whole situation yesterday and we were just
excited to talk to our new friend. We had a Bible to give her and some stories
to share…God prepared us and we were ready to be used. But, it turns out God had
used us in all the ways that He wanted to use us the day before....
As we were sitting and waiting at 2 oclock, I was just
silently praying that Paris would show up. I was sure that she would either
show up or we would understand why not, if she didn't show up.
So time is passing, it's
a waiting game and God gave us some other opportunities to love people while we
were waiting. A group of our teammates came while we were sitting there and we
told them she wasn't there yet at about 2:25…they told us they were praying,
we knew they meant it. They went and sat a few tables away.
As 2:45-3:00 rolled around...the older man that Paris was
with the day before, who Sarah and Stacey played volleyball with, showed up and
started talking to the other group. He became friends with them the day before
and wanted to continue playing volleyball with them while he was on vacation.
Bethsaida and I continued looking around for Paris to see is she had come with
him. But there was no sign of her! We both got nervous feelings in our stomachs
and wondered if he had gotten mad at her for trying to come meet us, or what
could have happened. I said to Beth, “ I just want to know why she isn't here,
I know she wanted to meet with us but something must have stopped her from
coming.”She agreed and we just
sat thinking.
Five minutes later Sarah Gaddy ran up to Bethsaida and I and said
“ GIRLS! WE KNOW WHY PARIS ISN'T HERE!” We just sat waiting for an explanation and she said “PARIS
WENT HOME LAST NIGHT!” Tears sprung up in my eyes and I just wanted to fall on
the ground praising Jesus! We all just celebrated together and thanked the
Lord!
It turns out when Paris went back to the hotel she was
staying at with this man Mike; she told him all about the two missionaries that
had talked to her on the beach and what we (God) had spoken to her. She told him she
knew what she was doing was wrong and God didn't want her to live like this
anymore. That there was another way. She said she had to make a right or a wrong decision and sheHAD A
CHOICE to make…(this was a little different from that SAME afternoon when she said “ I
have no choice”) She was a witness to Mike by even sharing this with him and
clearly explaining that she was going to make the right choice and not keep living like this one more night! She CHOSE GOD'S WAY and she went back home to her
family and a new beginning that very night!
PRAISE THE LORD FOR HER REDEMPTION!
As I wrote before I started doing a prophecy calender where
God gives me words or verses for each day at the beginning of the month or
months in advance. I started this on Wednesday night…the day before I met Paris
and God did any of this. And the word for Thursday when I met Paris was
“Relief”.I feel like God just
brought her all the relief she had been needing, He said "give me your burdens
and the heaviness on your heart and turn from your ways and I will give you
RELIEF." I imagine Paris leaving on a boat last night feeling relieved and ALIVE
in Christ!
I look at the words in my calender at the end of every day
so I can see how God was faithful and what He wants me to see about that word
for that specific day. The word for today that I had written was REDEMPTION.
God Redeemed Paris' life yesterday and is making it NEW!! I am so excited for
her and for how God worked all this out in His perfect timing.
God isn't only working in Paris' heart, a big need for
change is also in the mens hearts that are involved in this. The lust in their
hearts that causes them to treat women like slaves and the heart issues behind
the whole human trafficking and prostitution. Mike had to take a good long look
at who he was last night and the choices HE is making as well. He told my
friends that everyone determines what is right and wrong in his own eyes and because of what Paris said He was now questioning what was right and wrong. A few of the guys and girls in our group have been able to have some
good conversations with him the past few days and learn what his story is.
A really cool part of the story with Paris was a song that
we sang over her life the night that we met her. Before we even knew that she had chosen to go home and leave her the life of prostitution behind. We wanted to sing Freedom
and Redemption over her life so we sang a song called “Come Away With Me”. It's a song about God calling us to Himself and telling us what a life with Him looks like.
The words to that song go like this:
Come Away With Me
Come away with Me
It's not too late, It's never too late, it's not too late for you
I have a plan for you, I have a plan for you
It's gonna be wild, It's gonna be great, It's gonna be full of Me
Come Away with Me
Come Away with Me
It's not too late, It's never too late, It's not too late for you!
Well if there is a blog I really want you to read this is the one! I am really excited about what God is already doing with only three days under our belt here in the Philippines. Enjoy reading the work of the Lord!
My team decided before we
came to Puerto Galera that we were each going to ASK God for a specific vision for this
month. What God kept telling me was: to Ask Him each day and to be sensitive to
listen to His Spirit's leading in my heart. I feel as though I haven't done
that as often as I could have on the Race or in my life back home. I know I
have the Holy Spirit to lead me and that I need to listen, but it's a choice
and a decision each day, and I often decide to go my own way and lead myself.
Wednesday:
So after telling my team that God just kept confirming that in me and He was just urging me to be
praying constantly as we walked around town and to the main beach-White Beach with tons of people.
He was also telling me to be aware of things and extra sensitive to the Spirit, to meet people
and remember their names, and just seek out what is passionate in my heart.
I
came back from walking around yesterday and was broken and expectant that God
was going to do great things this month. We met a lot of women who work in the
shops, we saw a lot of the issues that are going on down at the beach, our
spiritual eyes were just open and taking in what God wanted us to see with His
eyes and I am so thankful because it's often impossible to see/understand
through our sinful eyes.
I wasn't expecting to see
any of the things that I've seen so far on this Island. Men dressed up as women (called Baklas) they actually think they are women...look like
women, talk like women, like men, and are completely confused and in darkness.
This is probably because of past abuse that was done to them. It broke my heart to see this confusion.
Another thing that you see
that is so prevalent are young women maybe 18, probably younger, with old white
men “vacationing” on the island. We all got really upset to see this yesterday,
as we now know a lot more about human trafficking and women being exploited for sex
all over the world. It just made my skin crawl to see the way they touched
these girls and just how wrong it was to see those young girls with these
skeezy old guys.
When looking at one of those
couples, it's not me looking at them with judgemental eyes, but with discerning
eyes from the Lord…to discern if this situation is right or wrong. Because this
is a vacation spot, people are so much more open with this kind of activity, as
wrong as it is. The islanders turn a blind eye to it and let it go to make the
money they need to survive. This is my first experience seeing Human Trafficking and prostitution right in front of my nose, and God is putting in on my heart to do something about it.
This is where listening to
the Spirits leading and asking Jesus for His eyes and heart to discern these
things and have wisdom, is so important- and this is what God is teaching
me.
After seeing all of this
yesterday and praying really hard about where God wanted to use me in all of
this stuff, I went to sleep with a heavy heart for these women and a desire to
see things change for them. I fell asleep and woke up a little while later to
really bad nightmares, feeling like something was holding me down and something
was just sitting heavy on me. I woke up and just prayed and said Jesus name and
I slept well the rest of the night, but I felt as though the devil was trying
to hold me back for the next day of work that God wanted me to do for His
Kingdom. That wasn't going to happen!
Thursday:
Today, I woke up
feeling excited and refreshed, finally recovering from the jet lag and
tiredness I was feeling. We did our devotion time and ate a great breakfast and
got to work clearing the land with machetes, and also planned Sunday school
lessons. Went on a run, showered and headed out for our separate afternoon
ministries.
At lunch my friend Bethsaida from A-team Remix,
asked me if I would like to go talk to some of the Bakla's (men who think they are
women) we had met the day before, for our ministry that day. I wanted to do beach
volleyball ministry but asked God and felt Him pulling on my heart to go
with Bethsaida for the afternoon. We are starting to build a friendship with people and
trying to understand where these guys are coming from…one of the guy's we met is
named ‘Christian on-the-rocks'…we decided this is a prophetic name for him…he
won't be “on-the-rocks” much longer.
Anyway after that we started
walking and praying for divine appointments. I really wanted to find Sarah and
Stacey and play some volleyball with them. We met so many ladies the day before
and they all remembered our names as we walked down the beach; “Hi Leah, Hi
Bethsaida” we would hear. We would say hello and smile to each other and say “I
don't remember her, or oh she's so sweet I met her yesterday!”. It's fun that
it's only the second day and we are already meeting so many people.
Meeting Paris:
We finally found them and
Beth went to look in a few shops. By the time I got there I didn't feel like
playing anymore so I just sat down to watch. I looked over to my left at the
ocean in front of me and saw one of the older men with a young woman and felt
compelled to just watch them. They were pretty far away so I don't know how
they even caught my eye, but God wanted me to see them. I watched the way he
stroked her hair once and shivered at the sight. She seemed really
uncomfortable. I kept watching and saw the man stand up…he turned to watch my
friends and their group play volleyball. I had enough and went to browse with
Beth. A few minutes later I came back out and sat down again, I looked over at
the couple and only the girl was there. I looked at the court and the man was
now playing volleyball! I laughed and said to my friend James sitting next to
me, “it's so strange, I was just watching that old man with that girl over
there…and now he's playing volleyball.” I got up and went back to the shops,
confused about why I cared. At that moment I asked God why I was confused by
that sight. I asked Him to give me His eyes to see and to tell me what to do.
He said, “get Bethsaida and go over to the girl now”
Beth jumped at the
opportunity and we walked straight over there, when you know it's from the
Lord, I find we don't hesitate…you just listen and GO! So we went to her,
walked up beside her and said something about how beautiful the ocean was. A
young Philippino woman looked up at us with eyes that were hopeful. She started
making conversation and I asked if we could sit down. We sat down and we all
started asking questions. Within the first few minutes we learned her name is
Paris, she's from another island close by and she is 22.
-You could almost tell
from the very beginning she knew why were coming to talk to her. She could see
Jesus in us. She told us she loved our hair and we all became instant friends.
I asked her what she did for a living and she said she worked at a bar. Paris
said she is the oldest child in her family and has to work to support her
family, parents, and her own baby and she lives far away from them. I asked her who
she was with...she said she was with a friend, the one playing volleyball.
She looked down and got a sad look on her face and said; “I'm not going to lie
to you, this is fast money. My family doesn't know I do this and I know it's
wrong. I have no otherchoice.”
At
that moment I felt my heart break as the Lord's breaks for His children.
The
words “No other choice” kept flying through my head and I wanted to cry. She's
on the island for 4 days with this man she doesn't know and she feels so alone.
Paris knew we were Christians when she told us this, we had told her what we
were doing this year and she wanted to tell us this so we could offer her hope.
She knew the Lord had something to say to her through us and was so ready to
hear it! Paris told us she feels guilty and has dreams that God let's her
family go to Heaven but tells her she is too bad to get into Heaven. She was
raised in church and knows who Jesus is, but has lost her way in an attempt to
provide for herself and family.
Bringing Hope:
We
told her just how LOVED she is, that there is hope for her future, that God
doesn't see any of our sins as too great or beyond hope and He wants to wash
away any of those hurts or sins that she is holding on to. She doesn't need to
believe those lies any longer.
I honestly don't know what we said, because God
didn't bring us there so WE could speak to her. HE wanted a moment with Paris,
one on one. He wanted to use us to speak to His daughter loud and clear. She
said she wanted to cry and that we God was using us as HISINSTRUMENTS. I thought that was
so beautiful and exactly right, my eyes welled up and I said: “That's exactly
right Paris, God wanted you to see just how much He loves you, He sent us to
you today. I saw you from over there and God told me to come talk to you.” She
said, “I know He did!” laughing and full of joy. We talked for a while longer,
just encouraging her and talking about what she loves to do in her free time,
her family, music and she said she was so happy to not be lonely or bored.
Paris was overwhelmed with how and why God sent these two new friends to her
and by His love and provision. I was overwhelmed with the same exact things.
She felt no judgement from the Lord, and she said that before talking to us her
chest felt really heavy, but now herheart feels light. She was ready to hear
from God and He is happy His daughter got to hear the message.
What happens Next:
I
asked Paris if she would want to meet us tomorrow for lunch. She bubbled with
excitement and said yes of course. She would find a way to meet us in the same
spot and we would go eat lunch together. She said there are some other girls
with her and she wanted to bring them…we said we would love to meet them! We hugged
her and said our farewells, all overjoyed with our Lord and Savior.
***It's
amazing when you get even the smallest glimpse of God's love for His children.
He sent Bethsaida and I at that exact moment to tell His daughter Paris that He
LOVED her. He told us to bring this message, “I love you,
I have plans for you, come away with me, your future is bright, Trust me!”
God
wants all of us to hear that message. He wants believers to truly BELIEVE that
so that they can share it with people that don't know it yet.
God
tells us to ASK Him who to love each day, He gives you a glimpse of that love
He has for them and there's no way you can't be changed. Forever I am changed
by His love…
PRAISE:
Paris
is meeting Bethsaida and I for lunch today at 2pm, in the Philippines, by the
ocean…the past pain is getting washed away with each wave of God's love! Praise
Jesus that sin and lies have no hold on her any longer! She is Free, I saw it
from the moment God told her through us, His instruments. I can't wait to
update you more on how God works.
**
A little side note, it's really awesome to look back on the whole situation and
see how God orchestrated all of these meetings today. Even just our friends
playing volleyball, the timing of it all, what I had been learning about
listening to the Holy Spirit. The girls were going to stop playing volleyball
at that same time and they decided to keep going, which gave us the chance to
meet Paris. Many more amazing things, I am obviously in AWE of the Lord!
I can't believe it's month EIGHT and I am currently living in the Philippines! I have been so excited the past few months as I have been praying about coming to Asia and I knew from the first day
living in the Philippines that God has AMAZING plans for this month…this has
been His message to me the past 5 days that we've been here and I know after
today that this is so so true!
We left
Manila, to go to our island for
the month called Mindoro, on Tuesday. More specifically we are staying in
Puerto Galera; a beautiful island paradise where many vacationers come to
getaway either from Manila or countries all around the world. Our other missionary contact at the house we stayed at in Manila said you guys sure are gonna be "suffering" for Jesus this month over in Puerto Galera. I just laughed and didn't really understand his sarcasm, until we got here.
When we
arrived it felt like we had walked into paradise…amazing beaches, beautiful
weather, smiling faces, turquoise water all around, and even our own pet monkey
(muy muy) for the month.
This month we
are partnering with a ministry called Threads of Hope. This ministry is
awesome…they have helped out Philippino women who make bracelets for a living
to make the same bracelets, but instead of selling them for little to nothing
on the beaches, often at the expense of exploiting their children to sell
things; the women are now able to make the bracelets in the comfort of their
homes and receive a larger profit to support their families and keep themselves
and their kids out of harms way. Our contact Alex Kuhlow and his family were
living in Manila and would come to the island for vacations, they started this ministry 7 years ago
to help out their friends they made on the island. They set up the places where they
sell the bracelets in the United States and in many different countries (camps,
churches, Christian Fundraisers, colleges, events) so people can support these
women and get something beautiful as well.
The ministry
has grown tremendously and they have been able to provide over 500 women in
Puerto Galera with jobs making these bracelets now with Threads of Hope. Alex, our contact had a friend, Pastor Al
come and start a church here on the island to get the Threads of Hope ladies
plugged in to a church and to support the community with the love of Christ.
This is who we are living with this month and are working alongside. While we
are here we will be doing manual labor in the mornings, clearing some of their
land of crazy tropical trees with a lot of pokey branches J. Then in the afternoons we are free to
choose the ministry that God is leading us to for that day. There are SO many
opportunities for ministry this month in Puerto Galera…it's hard to know where
to even begin. But God is putting passions and desires on our hearts and
opening up great doors already!
It's a
beautiful world here…but beauty is often deceptive. The people are truly the
sweetest, most kindhearted people I have probably met so far. But there is a
lot of evil going on around us. Specifically at these gorgeous beaches!
Check out the Threads of Hope website and the Kuhlow's story and see who we are working with this month:http://www.threadsofhope.com.ph/
Also read my next bog about our first day of ministry on White Beach in Puerto Galera...Awesome things happening!!
"One thing I ask from the LORD, this only do I seek: that I
may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to
gaze upon the beautyof the LORD and to seek him in his temple." Psalm 27:4
Sometimes I feel as though this experience-this life I'm living and everything I have seen isn't even Real ! Especially these past few months living in Africa...it still feels weird to say I have livedIn Africa for Three months! I never thought I would be able to say that and it kind of blows my mind seeing the land, loving the people, and realizing all the beauty that the Lord has placed on this continent.
As I have been reflecting back on my time here, God took me on a trip down memory lane that reminded me of who He is in my life, in this land, and how He provides for people. I feel honored to have seen all the beauty of WHO HE IS, and how He has shown this to me in big and small ways these past months. I'm excited to share this with you all! I kind of feel like Mary; when it says "she treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart"....that is what God has been teaching me to do. To store the beauty of Him in my heart, to treasure the things I have had the opportunity to see and learn from, and now share it with others. Part of me selfishly wants to keep these experiences between me and the Lord...but I've realized that's not fair. For a time it was a way God really drew me into Himself, spoke to me and showered me with His love...and I have praised Him for that time! But now He's telling me it's time to share the stories, heartache and memories that He inspired.
This is a journey of How God has taught me to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord in Africa:
An excerpt from my journal: Random thoughts about Africa " It's easy to let your mind think that these things we see aren't real..to begin to think that way and live in that...to feel so different from people, but pretend that you're not. To see the hurt, pain, joy and gladness and not even begin to understand their lives. Sometimes though, you feel like you're going through the same things -you empathize and love them so deeply, you feel the burden and you want with everything in you to carry that burden: to have it be you that is suffering, you that has to worry about feeding the mouths of a whole family the next day, you that takes the abuse from a drunk husband of a beautiful woman (who never did a thing to deserve anything but love). You to truly know what hunger feels like, to know what being sick really means. You to learn to trust God through the most tragic and heart breaking circumstances.....These are the things that I have tried and wanted to take the burden of, that I have wanted with all my heart to have it be me and not my African friends. But Jesus gently reminds me not to worry--that HE has already taken up that weight on His back, that I don't have to try to imagine this because He's ALREADY handeling it..He's WON the battle and He loves them more than I ever could. He SEES them, and by the hope and peace that I see in the eyes of these families, even in the midst of pain--they trust Him and see Him fighting and that heals the brokenness, it binds up the broken hearts. And that's when people can rest in the Lord and where He has them! **It's still hard for my mind and heart to catch up to what my eyes see. It's so hard to blog when I don't know what my heart is going through. I go from one thing to the next and sometimes I forget or lose the time to process, grieve, think and remember what God has shown me and what He wanted me to learn. And what I did or am going to do about what I saw. How to take action...As I sit here on a comfy couch in Cape Town, South Africa in a "real" house (or what we see as real), I finally have a moment or allow myself a moment- outside of the two African countries I just visited- to Reflect and remember the beautiful faces of the amazing people I lived life with. To reflect on their stories of triumph, their fears, challenges, obstacles, praises, and thankfulness. And wow it feels good to remember those and praise God for those people! God has blessed me with a memory that can very easily recall people's stories, faces, the time I spent with them, funny times we shared, and things they specifically asked me to pray for. But if I don't take the time to remember them...what good is that memory? This might be a big reason why I feel burdens for people, because they live on in my mind for years to come. If I think about their name, a thousand other images come back to me. This may be how everyone's brain works, but I guess I don't really know! I know God has given me extra doses of compassion and love for a reason, and I'm starting to see what those reasons are. Besides beautiful people and their stories, God has allowed me to see amazing sights in the past months. From a great hike in Malawi, the drive to Zambia, a crazy amazing lightning storm like nothing I've ever seen, stars, stars, and more stars, the amazing Victoria Falls, a sweet farm we lived at for a few days in Livingstone- near Vic. Falls, taking a leap of faith to go Bungie Jumping, and now Cape Town for this month...which is a whole other blog with the beautiful things we've seen here! I've always appreciated God's creation and His design, but it's come to a whole new light lately." These photos are from the end of Malawi through Zambia... these are only some of the experiences that God used to show me His beauty and to seek His face.
An amazing/difficult hike in Malawi with team Fearless...we conquered that mountain and got to have some INCREDIBLE worship with the Lord when we reached the top!
Trying not to fall off the mountain we just climbed, being the silly girls we are :)
Nothing like prayer and worship in a setting like this...beginning to realize God was preparing me for a new season and seeing His beauty in everything around me!
Admiring the Beauty of it all!! Even the thunderstorm heading towards us...
"Everybody needs beauty as well as bread,
places to play in
and pray in, where nature may heal and give strength to
body and soul." A great ending to a very fun chapter with team Fearless!! Our teams were switched a few days later at our month 5 debrief. Love them so much! But we were on to a new chapter of the race, with team Force in ZAMbia!
Everytime I talked to sweet Elizabeth and she smiled at me, I saw Jesus in her! She had the sweetest heart, communication was difficult because of language...but in spite of that we still became good friends, I think our smiles always encouraged each other :)
To the right: We had a ladies day at the baptist church we worked with in Zambia...they taught us how to cook traditional food outside on open fires and also had a fun time making us sample the interesting things they eat...yumm chicken trotters!
Despite many trials in their lives, these ladies loved us so much and I saw so much of the Lord in them, along with trust and strength. We had many fun times! They are also prayer warriors...I've never been prayed over so fervently when I was sick!! Whew! While we were there we had the opportunity to preach and teach...this is not common for women in this church, they said we opened new doors for them and avenues of ministry for the women!
Sweet Zambian children!
Little Zacheus holding my hand in church on Christmas while he slept, what a sweet Christmas gift! Oh the beauty of little things! Baby Zacheus and I at church on Christmas!
Little Barbara...oh what a joy she was to meet! We met her on house visits one day. She greeted me with a smile and shook my hand. I needed a little joy that day and she made me smile. What a little doll!
To the right: Our mom (or Mamayo) that we lived with, walked me home from church holding onto my arm so I wouldn't fall in the mud. She was the funniest woman I've met so far on the Race! Always laughing and making us laugh. In pictures she wouldn't smile unless we tickled her..this became quite the game! I will always smile when I think of her. Especially the time we modeled together in the rain...she threw her purse at Alicia and said "catch" and then she started to walk with this attitude, making faces, and posing. I was dying! So then we took a photo with some attitude
This is Bridgette and her baby Sarah...poor little
Sarah got burned very badly while we were there by hot water. Bridgette has a tough
life at home with her husband and family. We became good friends with
her and I will continue praying for her as I remember her smile and
singing!! She is an example of beauty and trust in the Lord through hardships! Pictures ABOVE: The sweet little girl is Abigail, and the other picture is a picture of three families that touched our hearts during some house visits. (Mary, Delphista, and Charles) They all have HIV and are very sick because of it. They can't work because they are too weak, so they have to trust God to meet theirs and their families needs each day. We were instructed to give some words of encouragement and pray for them at each of these visits...all we could really do was hold their hands, cry with them and pray for them. We left those visits wanting to do something more for these families, struggling to survive. There are times to pray and times for action...and God told us it was a time for action. With the help of some family and friends, we were able to give them food, supplies, soap and some other basic needs. As well as pay for some education costs for one of the families. Of course these material things will run out, but they saw God move our hearts to provide for them and He showed them He loved them when they needed it and that's what matters...this is another example of God's beauty!
We had the awesome opportunity to go see the beauty of Victoria Falls in Zambia..one of the seven wonders of the world! And before we saw that, we thought it might be fun to Bungie Jump off the bridge there :) It's the third highest jump in the world! What a rush and a leap of faith to trust God and jump off that bridge. It was the craziest thing, and so much fun! Minus the whip lash! haha
My lovely new team: Team Force. Me, Jake, Jeremy, Alicia, Micah and Stacey at Victoria Falls!
"Never lose an opportunity of seeing anything that is
beautiful; for beauty is God's handwriting - a wayside sacrament.
Welcome it in every fair face, in every fair sky, in every fair flower,
and thank God for it as a cup of blessing." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
God uses His beauty as a reminder for us to SEEK HIS FACE!
A few more great videos from our time in the African Bush...
The first one is a video of baptisms we got to be a part of and another one of our teams that Daniel went to visit.
The second is some great footage the night we left the African bush of our "last supper"...a delicacy and honor to be served Goat Intestines...I respectfully declined...but Sami, Daniel, and Jake took one for the team...literally! Thanks guys :)
Once again, videos made by Daniel Durick: Check out his blog to see more of his fun videos! http://danieldurick.theworldrace.org/
Once again Daniel Durick from my previous team; team Fearless, has put together some awesome videos that show what our crazy travel day(s) to Africa looked like, and a great depiction of our first few days in Malawi!
These are what my last few blogs were about, but I think it's more fun to see them in video form. So enjoy, and I hope you get a good laugh from these...just like I did :) Thanks Daniel!
Hey Friends, Family and whoever else may be reading this! :)
I just want to say a HUGE THANK YOU to everyone for fighting for me to stay on the world race and donating to my support account...the last few days of that deadline just blew me away with how God moved in your hearts to support me and ultimately His Work. I praise Him and thank You for your prayers and donations. I am now 100% fully funded and giving God all the Glory!! Woo Hoo!!
But, it doesn't stop there...as I have mentioned before I have a squad of World Race family that has been supporting me through this race with prayers and love also; and I have made life long friendships with these people. These are "squadies" who are not even on my team, who I love like sisters and they need YOUR HELP in this last 24 hours of support raising! They have worked hard to raise support the whole race and have trusted the Lord with ever second of it...God has kept them here because He is using them for His Kingdom, and I can't wait to see how he uses them the last 4 months of this adventure!
Adventures In Missions graciously extended their deadline and JAN 15th is the last day, so we need YOU to help out today! I am asking God to do great things for these last 4 women who I don't want to see go home early! I have seen their hearts and they are true warriors for the Lord and His people..and I know He will provide...
Here are the names and blogs of the four ladies that need your support today:
I know God is blessing and changing lives overseas and back at home, I also know it's not anything to do with us but give HIM all the glory. I pray you have been encouraged and blessed as well as you are on this journey with us and read the stories God is writing from back in the states.
Check out their blogs and see the hearts of these ladies and...
Please pray about it and ask God to show you who to support today! And of course rally with us in prayer today as we pray for our sisters and rejoice with them as God provides :)
As I was writing this I was reminded of Pauls prayer for the church in Ephesians...so I leave you with this thought : )
Ephesians 3: 14-21
"For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us,to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."
I want to share one of my favorite Christmas songs since I was a child, with you. I'm sure you all know it...a classic by Amy Grant (or that's who I prefer to sing it) called:
Grown Up Christmas List:
Do you remember me? I sat upon your knee I wrote to you With childhood fantasies
Well, I'm all grown-up now And still need help somehow.(can you still help somehow) I'm not a child But my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish My grown-up Christmas list Not for myself But for a world in need
No more lives torn apart That wars would never start And time would heal all hearts And everyone would have a friend And right would always win And love would never end This is my grown-up Christmas list
As children we believed The grandest sight to see Was something lovely Wrapped beneath our tree
Well heaven surely knows That packages and bows Can never heal A hurting human soul
No more lives torn apart That wars would never start And time would heal all hearts And everyone would have a friend And right would always win And love would never end This is my grown-up Christmas list
What is this illusion called the innocence of youth? Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth (There'd be)
No more lives torn apart That wars would never start And time would heal all hearts And everyone would have a friend And right would always win And love would never end, oh This is my grown-up Christmas list
To some extent this is my grown-up Christmas list this year. I never knew as a child I would still love this song to this day. But I probably love it more now than I did then.
I have seen all of these things in the past 5 and a half months and God has asked me to step up and do something about them. To love the people that He loves, to pray for His people, heal His nations, and bring new life through Him to a world that is lifeless. This is my prayer this season of celebrating Christ's birth and I would love if back home you started praying for the same things. God wants His Kingdom to come to EARTH...that's why He sent His SON to earth after all. He wanted to give us the opportunity to share in everlasting LIFE with Him. I am guilty of not doing something about all of these things for so long. Of ignoring the hurt that my brothers and sisters live in day in and day out. But I will not go back to that now or when I return home. My prayer is that this CHRISTmas you step up and join me to bring the KINGDOM of Heaven to Earth. To love people with the arms, hands and feet of Jesus. To Bring the gift of Jesus to the nations and to Praise our God for His good and perfect gifts this Christmas.
I still need $1500 to stay on the race.
MY FINAL deadline for support is January 4th....Please rally with me to keep me on this amazing journey with the Lord.
I am confident that God wants me here and He will provide, so thank you in advance for your support, care, and concern!
I wouldn't be here without such a solid support system back home, financially and prayerfully!! You all know who you are! I just want to say thank you for allowing me this experience and thank you for the lives YOU are changing because of it!
May God richly bless this season of your lives and the next! Thank you again...I love you and Merry Christmas!